The End of July

It is intense how July has passed. I know there are still a couple of days left but this month went by extremely fast. 

I remenisce about how everything fell apart since I left home. I mean for them, not for me. Home was a completely desolated, isolated and abandoned place. “Home” – I often said in huge quotation marks. It is scary what a couple of years do to people. Not in a good way unfortunately. As far as I see the people eat each other up alive which scares me. It’s no surprise I like being alone and thinking much rather than being with human beings. 

What I see is it is all about benefits and advantages when it comes to human relations and connections but when trouble comes the relationships shatter. Maybe it is another phenomena of the 21st century. Self reflection is not the only one thing that is in the focus, it is also greed, megalomania and abuse. I usually check out these couples and pairs walking on the streets but I do not see them smiling or being carefree. What I see in the meantime is some sort of dependence, that they are together for some reason which might be: emotional dependence, the fear of being alone, material benefits, social funds and so on. 

I don’t like how the darkness whirls around in the poverty and swallows more and more people. It is crazy how people think that material belongings will make them happy. They will pay the price for the lesson and I hope that someday they will find the true meaning..