I almost started crying when I saw those players on the ground. They were not even basketball players. They were running after a ball but still. I try to erase every single piece, every fragment of that day and the next couple afterwards. No, I should erase whole months afterwards.  It was love at first sight. At least, it was for me. I was all alone in it, I guess. I will never forget that day. I was nervous and it started in the morning. My heart was pounding in my throat and I was squeezing an envelope in my hands. I wrote a letter – a love letter to…

It is intense how July has passed. I know there are still a couple of days left but this month went by extremely fast.  I remenisce about how everything fell apart since I left home. I mean for them, not for me. Home was a completely desolated, isolated and abandoned place. “Home” – I often said in huge quotation marks. It is scary what a couple of years do to people. Not in a good way unfortunately. As far as I see the people eat each other up alive which scares me. It’s no surprise I like being alone and thinking much rather than being with human beings.  What I…

When I take a walk I often envision that someone runs after me with a white rose and tells me that my smile is the most beautiful he had ever seen and he wants to talk to me about what I think about our existence in this world.  I know, it’s delirious.  I cannot help myself, really. Maybe it is because I was brought up on Walt Disney, I don’t know. I had a whole bookcase with Walt Disney books and I remember reading them all over and over again, believing in that magic, in that true love that lasts forever. I never gave up that dream I had when…

I have met A. during a job interview I had with her. She was the manager of this high-fashion luxury brand shop which was advertised on the local television and on elite levels. I really did not think about anything fishy. Not until I started working there. It was very weird that the shop was always looking for an assistant. There were no stable people working there which I found curious.  Then I started working there. Politicians and hyped television characters appeared to buy clothes which were overpriced but cheap in fabric. A. was always boasting about how the fabrics are high quality stuff and every single dress is made…

A few of us are back at the office during this hysteria. It was much worse a couple of months ago. I hope that the people will wake up gradually.  It was very calm actually. I had my hot chocolate and I sat by the waterfall for half an hour. I felt grateful. I love the place. And the morning temperature was very mild and friendly as well. In the afternoon it became scorching though.  It is so sad to see the people on the streets. The people I passed by today. I did not see a face that was happy or satisfied. Everybody was carrying their own baggage. Very…

I often take long walks. Helps me to find inspiracion, relax and clear my mind. It is hard sometimes to perceive, to feel instead of just seeing. As far as I am concerned the people who pass beside me on the streets don’t necessary feel just see. Physically see. I don’t like living in a world so material like this. I never have but as the years pass by I feel less and less comfortable. I don’t really like to see what I am seeing on a daily basis in Budapest. Since the restrictions and the decisions made by the rulers, more and more people end up on the streets.…